It seems like I am always finding excuses not to blog, but this whole deployment business is harder to deal with than I had thought it would be, and it is really bringing me down. It is hard when we have an argument, when we hang up, he can call me, but right now I can't call him. It doesn't seem fair. It is like there is nothing I can do, everything is beyond my control, and I just feel sad. It's early, so I am sure this will get easier. I hope. It is hard not knowing exactly where he is, what he is doing, what he is experiencing, and how much danger he might be in. These are not things he will tell me until after the fact, I am sure. This way, he tells me, I won't worry. Not true! I think I worry more!
Morgan started football at school, so he has practice every night. Wyatt is managing the team, so he goes and helps out with practice. I am glad he decided to do it. Now they have something in common that can help them bond, I hope!
School is in full swing. The kids and I started back on the 20th of August. I was not ready to go back. I never am, but this year it seems like we had to go back way too early. The day before we went back, the kids and I met a friend and her kids for a day at the lake. I wasn't feeling that well, so my friend and I just sat in beach chairs and watched the kids play in the water, and talked. It was nice to have someone to talk to. I had a stomach ache for about a week after Jayson left, and I just now realize that it was probably caused by stress, and nerves. I am feeling better now, just blue. I am looking forward to the community Ed classes through out local college to be posted. I am planning on taking a class, more than likely something active, to help keep me busy and moving. We took our little dog, Bergie, to the lake with us. She got to try out her new life jacket! I think she liked it. The kids had a blast playing with her, because she was like a little toy, and the life jacket has handles so they could pack her around like a little suitcase!
Jayson isn't able to call us as much as he did when he was in the states, which was a few times a day. Now we have to go a few days between phone calls, so I am making sure I email him daily, just to let him know we are all doing okay, and that we are thinking about him. We finally got a mailing address for him, so we can start sending care packages! The kids will have fun with that, I'm sure! Gotta keep pluggin' away.
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